Friday, February 8, 2013

Jazmine

Today was so heartbreaking.  Jazmine Marie passed away at 11 weeks old. RIP baby girl. Dana Marie, please watch over Jazmine until her momma can see her again. 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

First Thanksgiving without you.

Well we had our first Halloween and now our first Thanksgiving. I feel like I am losing my mind more and more as the days past. What they say is true... you never know what you got until it's gone. I miss you so much baby... time doesn't heal anything and I think in some cases it makes things worse. I know you are in a better place but I would give anything to have you here for just one more second... I would hold you so tight and tell you one more time how much I love you. I would sing with you just one last time.
I miss our nights watching House... I waited forever for you to come home.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

My baby

Every single day you are in my thoughts. Everything has been screwed up since you left... we all miss you more than you will ever know. I wait for you every night. 

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Life...

My last post was about Dana... hmmm... there will be no more stories about my daughter. My heart aches, my stomach twitches in pain, & tears roll down my cheeks. My baby will never laugh again, she will never call me on her way home. There are several isles she will never get to walk down... the one when she graduated from TTC, the one when she graduated Law School, & most of all the church isle when she married the love of her life. I will never get to hear "Mom I'm pregnant!", or "It's a boy/girl". I will miss you for the rest of my life baby! I love you more than you ever knew! Baby Rest In Peace, Momma will fight for justice against those mean horrible men who hurt you!

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Without a car

My 17 y/o daughter wrecked her car a few days ago. She is fine and walked away without a scratch. However the last few days she has been driving me crazy about getting a new car! At first it was the insurance company needed to hurry up and get a check cut, then she has been unbelievable about searching for a new vehicle! Does she not understand first of all that she wasn't even supposed to be on that dirt road, that she was supposed to come straight home after work. Does she not understand that some things take time? I am still pissed about the fact that she broke rules that were laid down from the very beginning. Now she wants to do nothing but complain about how her life is ruined because she doesn't have a car! I am fed up with kids thinking they are entitled to everything they want and when they want them! So for Easter this year I am making my kids take $20.00 each ($40.00) and go grocery shopping for a family in need and take them an Easter Dinner they will never forget! I want them to start to be grateful for what they do have and stop demanding what they want. Hopefully this will teach my children something.
I know growing up I wasn't always thankful for what I had, as a matter of fact I was pretty damn self-centered. However, my parents had enough of that and shoved my ungrateful A$$ to the curb and gave me a hard life lesson. I slowly began to realize that everything doesn't come when you want it, that you have to work for everything. For those who read this and don't know me, I am 38 y/o and going back to school to make life better for us. Life is hard. Life isn't fair. You aren't entitled to anything. Be thankful for what you DO have.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

SC debate...

I know I'm not up on all the political issues, but I do feel like some things are more important than others and I wish that they would cover more important things like education!

Friday, January 13, 2012

Phones

Apparently I like/love the Android system so much that I am will to reprogram 4 phones in 4 months!  I'm not big on many apple products, mainly because all I have to base my knowledge of them is from slow school computers. Maybe its time I break down & get a MAC & see what all the hype is about... if this phone breaks again I think I will start with an iPhone 4s.